Thursday, September 30, 2010

day one: hate

So, my Alexa friend is doing this thing because one of her friends is doing this. and i think i would really enjoy doing it as well. it's called "30 Days of Truth", so for 30 days you write about each of these topics, and i'm excited to do it! it'll be very interesting to learn about myself. so here we go!

day one: thing that i hate about myself

i hate that i rarely stick to my guns.
examples:
1) tonight i'm going to bed at 10:30!! i mean it this time!... 11 o'clock, 12 o'clock, 1 o'clock... well shoot, guess i should go to bed now.
2) i'm going to read my scriptures EVERY morning and EVERY night. well i can't i have work... it's too early... i'm too tired... it'll be ok if i miss this one time... i'll read double later...
3) i will not make out with joel tonight- ok we can kiss a little... a minute isn't so bad... 5 minutes, not a big deal... ok just 100 more kisses...
4) i'm going to write my paper DAYS before its due. or i can just stay up for hours and hours the night before...
5) i'm not going to spend a lot of money today... but i NEED this... but i'm hungry... but this will last me for such a long time! i donate plasma so it'll be fine...
6) i'm not going to eat so much today, because i'm gaining weight. oh but i've been walking around a lot...but i haven't eaten out at all, today... but i don't have time to eat later...
7) i'm going to clean my room today! but i can just shove it in the corner and you can't hardly tell its there...
8) i'm going to clean my car today! inside and out... but that requires me spending money... but i'm not supposed to be spending money... i'll clean it out some other time... at least sometime before winter...

anyways... you get the picture. i hate that i can't seem to follow through... i guess its a self control thing... i just suck at times and it really frustrates me, but i suppose its just an awful habit of mine. i procrastinate. WAY too much.


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